Twenty-five or more years ago, I started writing Oprah a letter when she had Ms. Erica Kane and all of the All My Children husbands on her show with her. The letter turned into a book! So, I never tried to send it. I called it Will the Real Erica Kane Please Stand Up. (All the Men I Loved) Not who loved me because I really can't tell who loved me. My journey took me to hell and back.

Through all of my trials and tribulations, I had to come back to Jesus. When he said, "I will never leave nor forsake you" he meant just that. It gets hard sometimes to believe it, but when you keep hitting a brick wall and facing death in the face so many times, you start wondering, why am I still here? It's not as though we can stand in a line and pick our race or our mother and father. Wow! Would life be any different? Believe me-it's only by the grace of God that any of us are still here. We all have a purpose for being on this earth. My belief is my purpose is to encourage others to believe in yourself and trust that God really does have your back no matter what the devil throws your way. As the song says, "He paid it all" Meaning, Jesus paid for all of our sins, and I thank him for allowing me to be alive long enough to acknowledge that.

So, here's my story.